October has been a hard month for me but its taught me so much. My sleep has been off but it’s allowed me time to pray and reflect. November 1st, it’s time to shake off October, cut ties where needed, readjust my crown, and move forward. I have way too much to accomplish and my peace, respect, dignity, and value is not expendable.
Have I made all the right choices? No, I have committed many sins. Thank God for His grace and mercy! I go to Scripture and it says:
“Nathan answered, “The Lord has taken away your sin. You will not die. 14 But what you did caused the Lord’s enemies to lose all respect for him. For this reason the son who was born to you will die.”15 Then Nathan went home. And the Lord caused the son of David and Bathsheba, Uriah’s widow, to be very sick. David prayed to God for the baby. David fasted and went into his house and stayed there, lying on the ground all night. 17 The elders of David’s family came to him and tried to pull him up from the ground, but he refused to get up or to eat food with them.
18 On the seventh day the baby died.” 2 Samuel 12:13-18
Sometimes, God will speak to you of your errors because they have caused His enemies to lose respect–you may have tainted your witness. God wants you to be what He’s called you to be for His purpose, not yours. Although God’s grace is forgiving, accountability is still your portion. Sometimes that means what you love may die. This isn’t always literal, but metaphorical and spiritual too. And we cry, pray, fast to keep that thing alive, hoping God will change His mind in our favor but it dies anyway.
Then what?
“So he asked them, “Is the baby dead?”
They answered, “Yes, he is dead.”
20 Then David got up from the floor, washed himself, put lotions on, and changed his clothes. Then he went into the Lord’s house to worship. After that, he went home and asked for something to eat. His servants gave him some food, and he ate.” 2 Samuel 12:19b-20
When that thing in your life that God revealed was sinful is dead, it’s time to get up, wash your face, come out your grave clothes, worship in the house of the Lord, and break the fast. It’s now time to eat.
Why?
“Then David comforted Bathsheba his wife. He slept with her and had sexual relations with her. She became pregnant again and had another son, whom David named Solomon. The Lord loved Solomon.” 2 Samuel 12:24
Because restoration is coming! What had to die in one season, God will restore in another. But you must do your part.
I’m done crying, praying, fasting in my grave clothes. It’s dead! Now it’s time to get up and prepare for my restoration!
I don’t know who this is for, other than me, but God says, “I’m waiting to see the renewed you in My House so I can bless you!”
Do not delay another day, get up and go to God for real!!
Blessings 💚
